Emptiness

I have had this feeling of emptiness the last few weeks and it took me until today to figure out what I missing: SCHOOL

This is the first year that I haven't been going to school, since I was 3 years old. It's a little odd. Sure, I'm still working Monday to Friday and with weekends off, but my brain feels like it needs something to do. When I get home from work, there are no essays or readings for me to do. I guess that is what is bothering my brain. It's used to constantly being on the go remembering things to do, things I read, things I heard in class, things I learned and apply, but now, it's work.

There are no major deadlines at work. Just do your work, when it's time to go, just drop everything and go home. There is no overtime-late night working, no schedules to get things handed in before 4pm on Thursday, or teachers lecturing past the designated time.

As much as I've wanted to be done school, part of me wishes I was still there so that I could feel like I was more productive. Now, I have to search for my own projects to do at home to keep my brain occupied, and I've realized it's hard, because I've never had time for this when I was in school for the past 20 years!!

Any ideas?